The Holidays Blues

I can't help myself but to feel the blues. I know that the holidays are here to be merry and glee. Somehow, I woke up in the wrong side of the bed nowadays. This feeling of gloominess surrounds my room. I wake up as if I do not have any purpose in life. Sad to say, I am that down and not so joyful. My health is not so good that my body is tired all the time. Then, I kept thinking and thinking.

I miss the people that closest to my heart like my Nanay (grandma), my father, my little angel and my loved ones who passed away. Bare with me however, I am grateful with my relatives that are still here and that is why I cherished their company mainly with my Mama. Also, I miss my friends and relatives who are now abroad. Missing their company and our talks.

Last year of 2009, I have a wonderful year that I experience with Raffy. I thank God that he found me. Happiness so sweet. This year, maybe I am expecting so much from Raffy. I am not getting any younger and being a crazy lunatic again. Mind you, Raffy is the best boyfriend that I ever have.

This is just a phrase into my life. I dislike this feeling.Who wants to be sad? Maybe I am for the Holy Week and not the Christmas Season. Thinking of the new year to come, I should have positive thoughts more often. Praying that I have to keep my faith of God's plan for me and into my future.

For the moment, I would like to feel this sadness in the air. Through this, I will have to chance to listen to my heart and reflect more on the blessings that I have. Thank you for your understanding. Hoping that this stage will just pass by.