Jan 5, 2022
Pains is never a friend of the body. If any of the body parts is affected then the whole body is affected right?
Hmm PAINS visit me last week And i almost give up, PAINS suck me up and i look at myself and says Is this how everything will end? God you know where this warrior is coming from,i have nobody,i am on a journey to success, this SICKLES CELL has taken a lot from me. The PAIN is just unbearable. PAINS you don't have control over.
PAINS that makes you look like a drug addict
PAINS that makes you look like you are lazy
PAINS that's don't even look at your efforts, and make you feel helpless, pitiful, hopeless, worthless.
PAINS that's caused me low self-esteem.
PAINS THAT WON'T LEAVE UNLESS ITS WORK IS DONE IN THE BODY
Going on from last week. I am just something else when this sickle cell take the power in me.
You know the PAINS that will make you look up to God and says TAKE ME GOD,I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE I GIVE UP.
I cried. I said WHERE IS MY MOMMY? YOU TOOK HER FROM ME.
WHERE IS MY DAD? HE IS WITH YOU TOO. THEN WHY KEEP ME HERE WHEN YOU KNOW YOU JUST WANT ME TO SUFFER. Do you know why all this is coming out? The PAIN is just too much to bear.
The finance? The care?
When i am told i will need to get transfusion I look up again and said Where will that come from? I lost my job to this sickle cell stuff. The sweetest people have known has done the ones they could.
I cried and say IT IS WELL. I AM GOING HOME. I WILL BE FINE.
But it is not well I am not fine Sickle cell is draining me of the little energy i have.
Where should i possibly start from?
Freedom i ask for!
Freedom i want!
Oh freedom, freedom, FREEDOM..