I WANT TO FLY

Yes I want to fly , as I write this my heart is heavy today , I see myself standing on the edge of a mountain , well strapped up to that gliding apparatus ,my heart is racing but Im excited , I have been preparing for 3 years now , I ve trained , I have put in the work , Im confident I bend my knees and prepare to take that leap ,I can already see myself soaring ,enjoying the magnificent view below ,the wind holding me up taking me further .But I cant move .I stand there in crouched position ready to go , I watch as others step up and jump I have supported and encouraged them , I wave them on as I watch them take flight , Im happy for them .But I am waiting to be released to move ,and I am waiting and Im getting anxious , Im getting anxious .

This is a realistic descripition of how I feel right now , I am a Fashion Entrepenur ,a Sustainable Fashion Designer , A Social Advocate ,I have a dream , I have a passion burning inside me ,that is a melting pot of all that I am and a vision that was placed in my heart , it has many moving parts but they all depend on the each other.

As I continuing knocking on doors and seeking investors , and wait for approvals from various funding agencies , whether its loans , or grants , its creating anxiety I feel as if I have been standing at the point of take off for far too long , I am seeing growth as our economy is now back up and running after a two year shutdown during the pandemic ,but during that time I trained and retrained, I ve researched ,Ive connected to suppliers to acquire all I need , Ive prepared and Im confident Im ready.

Waiting on approvals from applied funding whether its a grant or loan is painful as Im anxious to move to the next level .

Because my business is being funded out of pocket ,it puts a strain on how much I can actually accomplish. Anyone who is a full time entrepenur would know and understand , but Im keeping the faith ,but like the eclipse ,I have a meltdown every 3 years ,lolzz and today is the day .

I am grateful I have had slow but sure forward movements ,my endeavours are reaping rewards here and there and it fuels my eagerness to move on .

I speak with confidence as I anticipate my two next steps, the opening of my store and the set up of a pilot project to extract fibers from plant materials to create fabric and high end jewellery and house furnishings ,this would be the nucleus of my Eco system which would provide , training and jobs through the NGO SETUP to provide training and a work at home programme to provide income to stay at home moms in vulnerable communtites .

This occupies my every waking moments and I know ,timing is every thing , maybe I am on the brink of that big break through , and yes Im sure there are others here that face or have overcome moments like these , I encourage you to not give up , because as nerve wrecking as it is the possibilites and purpose will out weigh the pain .

I will fly ...

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