If I die today
Sep 19, 2021
Story
If I die today
know me
I fought fights I'd already won by witnessing them
I saw loss by turning away from my reflection
and gain by facing myself
I wept and laughed with what I had at the time
and gave even when I had nothing
I lived and so I know death is coming
If I die today
read me
I used your apathy as blood in my pen and wrote freely, easily
I read sacred text in everything
and fought the urge to mask truth in the words
I stained them with my love like the lover who refuses to leave
though at times it pained me to be exposed
I wrote
If I die today
remember me
only fools of love remember a mirage made by their own stories
If I die today
find me
in the screaming crow on the treetop outside your window
even when all you want to do is ignore the sound of your beating heart
If I die today
live for me
in the silent moments of clarity where abandon is your only companion
If I die today
set the devil inside you free
If I die today
notice me
and throw flower petals on the shroud you couldn't see from the screens of your living facade
Laa'iqah Ebrahim