Learning the Importance of your worth.

Growing up, I've always let people abuse my kindness. i am aware of what they are doing but i always had a soft side where i didn't want to say anything because i might push them away. Recently, I started speaking up and addressing the issues i had with people, especially the issues that caused me trauma and needed deep healing. Some understood my point and apologized. I forgave them but i have my boundaries with these people now. I don't talk to them as much as i used to anymore, I am protecting myself from any negative energy that they could send my way.

All my life, I have always felt abandoned. There are people around me. My family, My friends, My beliefs but, i feel like i am always left alone to fend for myself. like i am the only one fighting for myself and no one else cares for me. Every person i invest in leaves me, abandons me and then makes me think that i was the problem that's why they left. Even to the people that haven't even met me yet personally, gives up on me. I really don't know what's wrong. Maybe because i started speaking up and Knowing my worth. Addressing when i don't deserve their treatment or when i don't agree to what is happening.

Nevertheless, I detached myself from these people. Because if me addressing my issues with the way you treat me and me telling you that this is something i don't deserve will make you give up on me and leave, instead of fighting for me then what's the point of me staying with you then. I've been patient, treating you with kindness, showing you and giving you the love you deserve and yet when i address that you are not reciprocating what i am doing for you, you choose to leave? you choose to give up on me? that's unfair isn't it. Don't blame me for choosing to detach from you and move on.

I know my worth. I know what i deserve. that's it.