Motherhood after barrenness of 11yrs
Jun 21, 2024
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Stella Katushabe
Joined Jul 21, 2020

Photo Credit: Believe that His timing is there
She appeared after 11years of barrenness
Hey ,am Stella .I feel like sharing my story to give hopes to someone who is delaying to conceive.There’s that horrible traumatizing and painful life you pass through when you’re barren. I lost my two marriages in like 11years due to barrenness. Both husbands looked angels but barrenness turned them devil.
No one can be patient, console or listen to you when you’re barren. Everyone looked at me as a looser, useless , Witcher, etc.
I cried basins, drums, oceans and sea of tears daily. I lost weight , appetite, love and smile in my life. Everything looked impossible.
I lost friends, relatives, in-laws and workmates after rumours that I can’t conceive.
I lost walking fashion because I was staggering my whole body , nowhere to pass or run to. No one was there to lean on as my pillar.
After losing my second marriage, I remember leaving with wounds on my whole body because my ex-husband became violent when I failed to conceive.
I also left my marriage because I failed to conceive. It was too shameful, hurtful and most heartbreaking in my life.
My heart was wounded too much, I turned a prayer into my breakfast, lunch and supper. After 1 year in prayer , I got a new boyfriend, he was sent by God I think. He was patient with me until I conceived a baby girl.
Getting the news after 2weeks of conceiving I felt like making it international public holiday, I felt like standing in middle of church service shouting “Alleluia", I felt like walking naked on streets wh , I felt like putting my tummy in newspapers but my boyfriend held my happiness into private thanksgiving to God.
We both became unemployed around 6months of pregnancy, it was added thunder mixed with storm in our lives. Sometimes I would sleep hungry on porridge but smiling 😀😀. I lacked an antenatal fee, I lacked maternity dresses, I lacked jelly to smear my pregnant body , hoooo everything was a messy.
When the time came to deliver my baby , we didn’t have money to hire a car or motorcycle to take me to the hospital. I footed from home escorted by my boyfriend to the hospital without even baby items like clothes, baby receivers , pampers etc . Apart from one bedsheet that we cut into pieces to receive our baby😔😔.
I reached the hospital when I was too tired in too much pain held by my boyfriend. They rushed me for C-section to save me and the baby. it was a horrible situation
My baby was born too tired and rushed on oxygen cylinders for a week. they discharged us but we didn’t have transport to take us home still.
Later our neighbor picked us with my baby onhis motorcycle back home,she was colic, she cries like non stop music. I have never got rest either day or night with the C-section pain in vain.
I kept believing that the same God who rescued me from barrenness, he will create a way. I become more strong, i feel God will make away for us
Almighty am grateful. I believe he will make it for us .