i got up this morning feeling sour because i changed my pillow last night...and went about all day massaging my neck and suffering a headache...!!!...do you believe this????to feel so attached to something as small as a pillow...and to be sick just because a small detail was changed in my daily routine....!!!i felt rediculous...i was too embaressed to look into my soul and find the selfish inhuman creature that i have become....!!what about those women in darfur who have lost not only thier belongings...but thier families...thier homeland...thier honor...thier physical and mental stabilty.......and their rights to live like the human beings that they are!!
dear freinds....right now...while im writing these words..>>some 800 thousand sudanese women from darfur...in the western and south west region are displaced....homeless...with no possessions.....no security ...no medical help....no silly pillows!!........................these women saw thier childen killed infront of thier eyes...and thier husbands tortured to death.....they were raped ....and abused ....by janjaweed soldiers who raided thier villages ....and killed the unarmed ...unprotected civilians and then burnt down the villges...!!...

darfur my friends is an open bleeding wound ..throbbing in our hearts...!!...
the situation there is truly devastating....300 thousand darfurians were killed in the early raids to villages but later the count went up according to UN missions...while our islamic dectator of a president said publicly that those killed were only ten thousand.....which is quite a big number too!!!!>.......only he doesnt care!!...in the contrary,the sudanese government was found to be connected to arm deals and some tribal vilonece amongst the fighting groups in darfur...in addition to the fact that governmental troops didnt protect the villages attacked by the janjaweed...the arab,muslim troops!!...it was a massacre!!...
the displaced camps in chad now are the only haven for those who managed to survive the attacks...they are waiting impatiently for the alleged peace to return to thier beloved land..!!
of course...within this crisis....the ones suffering most are the women-as you can imagine- they miss thier killed bloved ones...and they try to provide and work day and night for the sake for those still living...with no decent health services....nearly no reproductive health and extreme poverty.....
my heart goes out to all of you my sisters over there living like zombies...with no human dignity but the little that you try to summon with your strong faces and weak smiles.....my heart goes out to all your sick..hungry children forgotten-or lets say,ignored- by the world....especially the arab and muslim countries....and by your own people!!............
i have nothing to give to those women but my voice...and the voice of the pulse...!!