The learning Continues

I have always marveled at how God uses the most unlikely candidate to execute His desired purposes. Yesterday I felt like Paul then Saul,who was persecuting the Christians and yet God called him to preach the very same gospel that he had been fighting so hard to destroy...

I know God has placed the family unit on my heart.. I love family,i love what it stands for and the intense power it has when it works,yet yesterday I saw a side of myself that seemed to contradict the very thing that i love...I had a fight with my brother,he said something that made me feel that i had to stamp my authority,hard...yet when i asked my husband to jump in and be the voice of reason,i realized that even in this situation i could have handled things a lot better,but what really struck a raw nerve is the realization that i was causing harm to the people and the institution that i claimed to love so much.

I had become so stuck in my different roles at the expense of just BEING a wife,a mother, a sister. I had been working so hard at providing for my family and yet hadn't invested my time,money or emotions in just loving them. I could kiss and hug my children more,instead of always worrying about cleaning up after them..I could run and comfort my son more when he cried instead of yelling from which ever other room i was. I could cut my brother some slack,and tell him that he is a great person instead of lecturing to him every other day on the importance of responsibility. I could just pick up after my husband quietly and be grateful that he is trying his level best to provide for his family as much as i am.

I guess in short the lesson is this...know who you are and what you want to achieve and be that...don't be stuck in roles...they change...